well time to move on

Hello,
I do not go on the computer much anymore, so it is hard for me to remember everything that has happened, more so the dates that it happened than what have happened.
Well after I say Chris and Kelley at the barn, Chris said that he wanted to take a step back, he was not sure what he wanted to do, so I said do what you think you need to do. The next day he txted me about why we can't get a long. I said that we could but he chooses not to. So he txted back that he wanted to meet me, so of course I met him at the barn, had a drink and went back to his place and had sex. We had sex everyday for a week straight. It was awesome...
Now we are at another week. On Friday April 15th the boys got their report cards and Ben did TERRIBLE... he went from a 78 to a 51 in a subject ( don't remember which one) but he also dropped alt in all the classes.. so I took his phone away and said that he is grounded from the computer until the end of school yr. I want to see his grades go up. At first I did not want him to go to Aunt Bert's house, but then the more I thought about it, I need a break from him. He told my dad that the reason that he is doing bad in school is because I go out every night and don't come home...W H A T!!!!!!! you got to be kidding me..
That was the icing on the cake. I am no longer going to give him his phone back. I am going to cancel Internet so he can not go on face book anymore, and he is not going to like me much at all.....I am going to be the biggest BITCH to him and make sure he does his work, clean his room and everything else that needs to be done.
Well Chris got pissed off because I let Ben go to Aunt Bert's. He is looking at it as Ben got his own way, but that is not the case,...I NEED A BREAK!!!!! I love him dearly but enough is enough. So now Chris does not want to work at this marriage and he told me tonight that he has a date Friday night.. I told him that his problem is that he ONLY looks at the things that I have not done yet instead of all the things I HAVE done. He did agree with me on that one, but he said that he does not know what he wants and I asked him if he wanted me to date and he said YES... are you kidding me ,I DO NOT WANT TO BE WITH ANYONE ELSE. I JUST WANT TO BE WITH MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If he can not see that by now, I guess it is time for me to move on. I have been spending the last month picking peddles off the flower, He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not. On top of that I have been praying that GOD guides him in the direction that he needs to be, and as of tonight, I guess it is not with me. I guess Chris' direction is to be with someone else... I am very depressed and I think I have to file for separation to stop this game that Chris is playing with me.. I love him with all my heart, but he needs to get his head out of his ass to be able to see that, and I don't think he wants to right now....